I have a pretty terrible memory.
I’m ashamed to admit that I very rarely remember what happens from year to year in the absence of a milestone, or a life-defining moment, or significant challenge.
2018 has been the latter. It has been a year of lows and learning. It has been a year of challenge and change.
I am more than ready for it to end.
But I am also thankful it came.
I’ve wrestled with God about how He has led me this year - to homeschooling, to being brought low, to so much uncertainty. And in exchange, He has taught me the depths of His faithful and contentment despite my circumstances and joy in scarcity. He had given more grace and more good, despite my sin and stubbornness.
He has been good. He is good.
And for that I am thankful. For the trials that brought steadfastness and the no’s that brought submission.
This is the year I opened my hands to what God allowed, and He not only wrecked me, but also proved His love for me. For the millionth time, He confirmed like only He can that He is still infinitely good and wise.
May I always remember this year, these lessons, even as I look expectantly to what lies ahead.
See you in 2019.